Ranting about random shit…
The world I live in is not meant for me and by “world” I mean the place and the people around me. The best way I can describe the place where I live is just garbage. The people are hypocrites and or druggies, party people, religious nuts. I hate it here. I have no friends to connect with cause we have nothing in common. Not to be confused with a couple good friends I have because I know they have busy lives and they want to get out of this shit hole as much as I do. Its the same thing everyday here. It’s either stay at home and waste hours upon hours doing jack shit on the computer, play video games, go to work 4-6 hours, or do school. Honestly what I want in my life is to do the normal 21 year old thing. Live life but have enjoyment in the process of it. Being straight edge doesn’t help because the considered normal 21 year old thing is drinking and partying. I just want to go out and hang out with friends, go to a comedy club, see a concert, but that doesn’t exist where I’m at. Its either 45 minute drive to Ontario or 1hr 45min drive to L.A or Hollywood. Not to mention meeting girls is quite near impossible, I mean what girls actually likes a nerd? And by nerd I mean me: A comic book loving, video game playing, football fanatical, nerd. Girls are only interested in guys that look like rockstars or little boys. By rockstars I mean the hippy looking guys, ugly bastards and by little boys I mean guys that are skinny, skater boy haircut, with a face that looks like a 14 year olds. I’ve tried the online dating thing and I’m completely giving up on that cause I get no response. Girls lie and say they want a genuine, down to earth guy and its ALL lies!! They get with the douche bags and get all lovey dovey for 2-3 fucking years and it ends badly. Where are the real girls women. I’m ranting cause I’ve been holding this in for months, I have no one to vent to sincerely, no one to talk to, I’ve been lied to, and have been played like a fool. I ain’t going to a damn church to make friends because they are not like me. If I were on scale of good to bad I’d be in the middle. I have morals, I know whats good and whats bad. But I’m not one of those people that think swearing or violence or sex is a sin. I’m not the type that gets uncomfortable seeing boobs or half naked women or sex scenes in a movie or whatever. I think its a natural thing and we should embrace it. I love swearing because it spices up my vocabulary and doesn’t seem ignorant at all. I like saying FUCK! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Go fuck yourself if you don’t like it. To me it seems like people put these masks on and pretend who they are in public but in their comfort zone they show their true colors making themselves be hypocrites and liars. I know some people who put on their God-loving masks and quote bible verses and say He is the way and then I hear the stories from my friends. Girls having sex with multiple guys, cheating on their boyfriends, getting high/drunk and etc. Obviously 90% of the girls that went to my high school (a “christian” private school by the way, ironic) are sluts and dirty ass bitches. It just shows that everyone I used to know decided to be like everyone else rather than being unique and just being themselves. Everyone does the whole drinking, doing drugs, getting high, having sex, thing. Very few choose not to do that and do what ever makes them really happy. I get the feeling people think of me as the bad person here because I do swear and make fun of the idiots that the world has. I’m a rebel, I’m straight edge because I have chosen not to be like everyone else and focused on things that make me happy and keep me sane like video games, comic books, music, twitter, tumblr, television, movies, sports, etc. I guess what I’m saying is I want to find and get to know REAL people. People who are not ashamed of their passions and want to connect with others with those same passions. I’m tired of being lonely and thinking I’m not fit for this world. I want friends that I can hangout with, talk about video games and comic books, go to comic-con, go to concerts and other friend-like things. I want a girlfriend that I be myself around and basically do the same things I would do with friends. I just don’t want to be alone anymore, I’m tired of being at home all the time, I just want a normal 21 year old life.
If you actually read the whole thing throughout all the grammatical errors. Bravo!
